mariic's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Warning...self-pity present! So I could not even make it through a whole day at work today. I just couldn’t. The Beast was talking, and it was all I could do not to throttle her. It makes me sick to be there. So I went home sick, with a migraine. It wasn’t a lie, I really had one. Definitely time to move on. I updated my resume today; the Mom is looking over it. I need to send it out, post it on the job websites, and pray that someone wants me. Soon. I am really frustrated with my attitude this past couple of weeks. I know my outlook sucks, and I am trying to be positive…but it seems like something is always coming up to push me backwards. I just want to go buy a big pizza and a pint of Ben and Jerry’s and pig out on the couch. Which would be very destructive, good thing I am too broke to buy either. But the fact that I want to is problematic. When I am being self-destructive is the worst, and very hard for me to pull myself out of it. No matter how cognizant of it I am. Well, I think I will go make some sort of healthy dinner, and go snuggle my dog. Maybe I will go veg out to Monster Garage; I think they are having a marathon tonight. 6:56 p.m. - 2003-08-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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