mariic's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- too blue... There is something about the rain today that is making me feel especially lonely. I have not been writing here in a while for a few reasons. Mainly, I am ashamed and depressed about stuff that I am not going to get into. I am going to go see my doctor tomorrow and see if she will give me some happy pills. Maybe that will help part of it. I work on solving some of it today. I think I need to get a second job. The other thing I have not wanted to get into is Heather and her possible move. I would hate for my feelings about things to add to the pressure of that decision. So it has been easier to just stay mum. I had posted a personal ad online…I always enjoy reading them…but I got too embarrassed about it and removed it today. I guess it is all the rejection form men lately…I do not want to set myself up for more, right? I think I need to stay away from the boys for a while. I need to do some focusing on me. Ugh. Wow, what a sad entry. See, don’t you wish I hadn’t written? 7:24 p.m. - 2004-02-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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