mariic's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- headache... So I have come to the conclusion today that I am never going to have Jim. That the past 4 months were for nothing. And I am so sick of feeling insignificant. It is strange how he can make me feel so great about myself when we are talking about work, going out golfing, etc. He is often my biggest cheerleader. (He always calls me Smart and Funny) Then with his reluctance and “reasons” for not taking things further, he makes me feel utterly useless, not worth the effort, like I’m nothing. So I cried about it while I was driving home from lunch. Then I get back here and read my horoscope: Scorpio October 23 - November 20 Things that have been building for a long time suddenly seem to be coming to a head for you today, dear Scorpio. Strong, slow-moving trends are coming into the picture and rearing their ugly heads. There is a great deal of opposition that is now making itself known in your life. Try not to lose yourself in the situation. See this as an opportunity to gain perspective and bring balance to the roller coaster that is your emotional life. Hee hee. Kind of funny and apropos that. So I guess I am on the right track away from him. It is just hard to give up on someone I love, and someone whose company I enjoy more than anyone I have ever know. Aren’t you glad I haven’t been writing about this all along? 2:26 p.m. - 2004-08-12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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